Um… OK. So Joaquin Phoenix decided to retire from acting to pursue a music career. Got it. But what we didn’t see coming was Joaquin Phoenix trying his hand as a rapper.

Check out the video clip above, which is honestly a trainwreck, as Joaquin raps Friday night at club Lavo in Vegas.

Joaquin Phoenix told People.com, “This is me saying this is who I am. This is my story.”